Sadness

Even though none of these developments with my father are a surprise I am still incredibly sad.  Very, very melancholy. 

I just had a long, long conversation with his doctor whom I like so very much.  Basically we're looking at getting him into a nursing home and perhaps hospice care.

My mother's heart hurts.  Last night she told me that every night...for 56 years...he would say to her "I love you a bush and a peck and a hug around the neck."  As Ernie drove her home from the hospital today she said, "I guess Joe will never come home again."

Last night I let Owen sleep with me...probably more for my comfort than his.  And as he snuggled in with me I hugged him and said, "I love you a bush and a peck and a hug around the neck."

Comments

[M&Co.]

Peace be with you.

[Rayne of Terror]

I am so so sorry about everything crashing down at once.

[mrs. chicken]

This is so hard, and so sad. I am sorry, Cynthia.

[Lisa]

Oh, my God. I'm crying as I write this. I have no idea why there has to be so much bitter in with the sweet in this life. I'm just so sorry that things are the way they are in your life right now.

[Mel Farrell]

Know that you have many hearts and minds pulling for you and your family. This will be hard, but there might be relief after your Dad settles into his new environment.

[Misc]

You have every right to feel sad now. Change sucks and what your mom must be going through, I can't imagine. As always, you and yours are in my prayers.

Hope Ernie's pain has lessened.

[Misc]

You have every right to feel sad now. Change sucks and what your mom must be going through, I can't imagine. As always, you and yours are in my prayers.

Hope Ernie's pain has lessened.

[veganlinda]

You are in our thoughts every day. It is never easy to see one's parents ill or dying. It doesn't matter how old they are or how long they have been sick, it is always heart-breaking. I feel so much for your mother...56 years is a very long time. I hope you are free to feel the sadness and whatever else you need to feel. Hugs

[Cynthia]

O.K.....my sister just pointed out that it's probably a BUSHEL and a peck. She was really tired so I told her to take her Ph.D and go to bed. HA!

[Anna]

Hang in there Cynthia! I know how hard this is. If you want to talk, call me! And I hope Ernie is feeling better.

[Sasha]

Love you all to bits! You've all been doing so much to care for both your parents. But, yow, we hurt with everyone. But glad your dad we'll be getting that kind of care, too.

[v'ron]

you can prepare and prepare and prepare and prepare and know damn well its coming, but it still hurts. Like everybody else said, I hope you take comfort in the many people who have your family in their hearts...