My sister Judi liked to celebrate her birthday. I remember sitting in University Gardens many years ago, the little Middle Eastern restaurant next door to the Second Hand Tunes in Hyde Park where Ernie worked, with my parents, Ernie----and Judi and Judi convincing all of us to wear little birthday hats.
When she got ready to turn 50 she wanted to do something special. She was teaching at Clemson at the time and found a place to rent on Edisto Island over her birthday. She asked a couple of her closest friends to go with her and she asked me. I had just started a job and it was a 9 month appointment at the University...which meant no vacation pay....something I hadn't realized when I took it. I needed the job desperately though so it wouldn't have mattered but it was an unpleasant surprise. I had sick leave but I needed all that for either, well..being sick, or to use to take time off to take care of my parents who weren't doing so hot to say the least. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't really ask for the time off and I didn't have the vacation time anyway....so I didn't go.
Well damn. You know, of course that I regret that. Not that it changed anything. My sister knew I loved her and bringing her into our home as she was dying said more than spending a weekend in South Carolina with her would have. Not that anything had to be said. Just the same I realize that you have to seize the moment as they say.
So I do...I seize the moment as much as I can possibly can. I have learned too well that you don't know what tomorrow will bring....that what you plan for itsn't necessarily what happens. So I wanted to celebrate hitting 50. I'm alive, I have a family I adore and in the scheme of things that's as good as it gets. And last night CynthiaFest was certainly seizing the moment....sharing music I love and good food with people I love...new friends as well as some very old ones.... It was indeed as good as it gets.
I really do feel full to overflowing. I love you Judi. Thanks for the birthday celebration. You taught me well.
Thanks to all who made it so special.