I feel as though I've been a bit quiet this week. I've just been struggling with this stomach stuff a bit, trying to push through it to get to work and get things done, and kind of collapsing when I get home. I've been doing the low FODMAP diet for, I'm not even sure how long, but at least a week. It has helped to a certain extent, but things aren't solved. I've felt a bit frustrated by it all. I've been doing lots of research (i.e. obsessive googling) on the whole B12 deficiency and that's been blowing my mind a bit. My tests showed a relatively severe deficiency and I am amazed at how closely many of the symptoms fit me--including symptoms the doctors have never been able to figure out and have sort of brushed off. I've been taking supplements and I think I may be a bit less exhausted...whether it's because of the B12 or because I've convinced myself that it is---either way is fine with me.
I've been struggling a bit with the boys too, over various issues. I don't think they will ever understand that when that happens it is often myself I'm most disappointed in for not helping them, and directing them, to the best behaviors. They are good boys though, and have wonderful hearts, so I try to keep it all in perspective. I try to keep ALL of it in perspective actually....health, boys, money, all the worries...because God knows I am fortunate in so many, many ways. This world scares me though. The vote on healthcare yesterday broke my heart. I couldn't even watch the news, and I have that feeling you have when something terrible has happened; you wake up in the morning and think, wait, what is that bruised feeling, and then you remember.
The way out of all this for me, as always, is music. I am truly, truly excited about Adam and Chris Carroll returning to our house on Friday, May 19. They blew us away last time, and hey, I've got people from Milwaukee driving down for it....just to show you how good....oh, and they're an Adam Carroll tribute album for God's sake. This guy is, as they say, the real deal. That's right...he's so much the real deal that I'm calling him the real deal even though I get laughed at for calling people the real deal. HA! And they're utterly delightful folks as well.
I tuck that in my pocket and remind myself that it is coming whenever things seem too dreary. I'm going with a Greek them....doing some lemon/oregano chicken and maybe a batch of Greek rice with spinach and lemon. I'll do experimenting this weekend (albeit without onion and garlic....sigh). Take care all. Hug your loved ones and consider yourself hugged by me.
Here's a video from the tribute album to Adam Carroll. Please watch the hell out of it. Go ahead. It's Friday. Take a minute and watch and listen. Oh, and here's the track list. Some pretty great names, huh?
1. "Screen Door," James McMurtry
2. "Girl With the Dirty Hair," Hayes Carll
3. "South of Town," Slaid Cleaves
4. "Oklahoma Gypsy Shuffler," Band of Heathens
5. "Hi Fi Love," Jamie Lin Wilson
6. "Lil' Runaway," Verlon Thompson
7. "Rain," Scott Nolan
8. "Old Town Rock N Roll," Matt the Electrician
9. "Black Flag Blues," Tim Easton and Aaron Lee Tasjan
10. "Smoky Mountain Taxi," Danny Barnes
11. "Errol's Song," Jason Eady
12. "Red Bandana Blues," Terri Hendrix
13. "Home Again," Mando Saenz
14. "Highway Prayer," Walt Wilkins
15. "My Only Good Shirt," Adam Carroll
